Oh, I don't care about propriety. Let's break the rules, ignore society.

ABOUT ME

• Derek a.k.a Daeric • My family, Core Crew and friends are my world • Ex-XNPS / Fuhua Sec / JJ / Raven COY. • • I love to listen to music and chill • Current Favourite: John Legend • Wants to migrate to Australia or pay a visit again • Do better for my A's. • Love my Mont Blanc wallet • WANT to get list • Golden Retriever • Lab Series • Belt • Height and Complexion •

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

5:35 PM

This is gonna be my utmost personal entry ever. I know it's gonna receive alot of comments and stuff but i just felt like writing it.

I've reached this stage of life that i started realizing alot of stuff. I couldnt sleep just now. I wanted to nap after coming back from studying in NTU.

My education - Studying for let's say, 2 years in Nursery & 2 years in Kindergarden + 6 years in Primary School + 4 years in Secondary school + Going to 2 years in JC. How many years have that been. That's almost 16 years out of my 18 years of life. WOAH. Brother's in NTU doing Accounting now, while my Sister's in NTU doing business now. My parents' wish. For all 3 kids to be in University - sighs - to be honest, i feel a little stress on me for doing well in my studies.

What if i have started studying long ago. Can i keep this momentum going?

Prelims in less than a week - and i drew up a prelim study schedule and i have even started studying the most for any one exam i take. Can i pass all my prelims subjects? Can i do at least an Average B for my Exams? Well, it shall be seen.

alright, the most controversial part of my life - relationships.

Friendship - It's simple, just wanna say i'm thankful for having Core Crew by my side after leaving Secondary school and to everyone out there - trust me, if you're in secondary school - you oughta find your besties here. Or at least, you will enjoy the most here.

Love life - I just wanna say, i thank you for making a big impact in my life. Making me realised how important it is to actually have more than fun in a relationship. It totally changed my life, to this day, i just can't seem to find someone who can replace you or at least, someone whom i have successfully be with. Been talking to felicia and xiu wen a couple of times about this, i mean i understand what the say but there's this thing in me that i feel that has been missing for the past 2 years. I just wanna complete it. It's been a whole 2 years, i'm ready to take on something and "settle down" (what core crew will laugh about). What am i to do? What's wrong with me? Who can truly understand me? What do i lack? I hope i got an answer to all these and maybe i can feel much better.

I hate those lonely nights where you start thinking how fun it used to be studying, how motivated you are to go to school, how nice everything used to be and you just want it back.